Romans 8:31 vs International Intelligence Agencies (Ends vs Means)

After I wrote my first book, I’d been approached and questioned by someone I wasn’t even thinking about when I wrote it. They thought some parts were about them, so I guess hit dogs really do holla. Lol

It was that exact moment that I realized that if I didn’t write a book myself, I probably shouldn’t bet entire relationships on my interpretation of it.

That’s why I don’t fear people that do, and I’m never feeling hopeless about anything.

I just randomly thought about when I worked at the Chesapeake Energy Arena for a short stint.

I was new, and out of all the coworkers I had, one in particular seemed to be visibly uncomfortable when they saw me until we first had a real conversation. After that, we found out we had a lot in common and I actually produced a few tracks for his brother. After that, everything was cool and even the general morale of the entire team seemed better. Crazy…

I wondered if it’s the primitive “vigilance” activated by being around strangers and not knowing if they’re friendly or not. Totally understandable. What’s great is that while talking, we actually addressed that energy of “not knowing if someone’s legit or not” because we’ve both dealt with snakes. That’s more than likely a real recognize real moment.

That kind of reminds me of ARC Raiders… a game that reiterates that lesson I learned so long ago, but that’s an entirely different conversation.

I realized there’d be many times where my work and/or reputation would precede my actual presence, but I really don’t care.

Rumors can move fast, but I move forever.

If someone is uncomfortable because of my “aura” or my “presence” or my work, or how I talk or move or whatever, but they lack the intellectual capacity to talk to me about it in time, that’s THEIR problem, not mine. AND that rhymed. Lol dope.

The last time I met someone whose “reputation” preceded them, I asked him about directly about it in person. There’s a narrative that he pretty much blew a major opportunity and made irresponsible decisions. That’s when I found out dude was being hated on by his own “friends” too.

We were literally cruising through traffic in Los Angeles. Lol it was like a movie scene. He told me he forgave who spread lies about him, but then he looked and said to me (and I’m paraphrasing here), “yea he apologized or whatever, but is he gonna put the same effort in to clearing those rumors as he did when he was saying all that shit about me?” I sat there in silence, already knowing the answer, then he said, “exactly”…. Lol

I’ll NEVER forget that.

I’m thankful I’ve met folks that don’t have that issue of being cowardly to the point of slander.

People like that are another reason I’m more confident and at peace wherever I go.

Don’t be like the goof that went to my job (when I was working at a music store lol) and told the owner of the store that I’m a lost soul.

Apparently, happily working at a music store and clocking out to go make music I like is just soooooo offensive to their “species” (ol’ demonic dookiehead a** type of folk). Lol

I’m not out there killing and robbing for crack rocks, not violating the rights of others, not redlining communities and passing laws that perpetuate disadvantages… lol but good drank and good food and playing with music/engineering equipment is the dealbreaker?… I’m such a sinner lord please forgive me for minding my business lol… 🤣.

He then tried to follow it up by saying my father’s an honorable citizen. Lol what a compliment. Lol the father of a “lost soul” huh? Sounds pretty backhanded to me.

Now the goof is on the wrong side of history… lol

Yikes.

I forgave and forgot about caring about their opinion(s) of me. They’re like a deleted spam message to me now.

When I zoom out and look at my experiences from a geopolitical perspective, I can understand why international intelligence agencies move like how they move.

Before I reset all my contacts, someone sent me videos like many other people did from time to time. They asked me a question about it, but seemed unaware that it was a skit. When I told them it was a skit, they seemed offended at first like they were intellectually challenged, but the convo moved along. C’est la vie.

With that being said, I’ve noticed patterns of the behavior of people who felt like I made them look stupid at some point. They seem to associate intelligence with wealth. They’re offended if I unintentionally say something that makes them feel stupid, then they pocket watch me to create a narrative that because I’m not running around flaunting a lot of money… then I’m doing something wrong, or I’ve probably committed heinous offenses and I’m going through bad karma or something… which is actually not the case and in fact…  makes them look stupid… again. Lol

The fact that similar misunderstandings have happened on a global scale makes me less surprised at why it’s so easy to monetize conflict with people that have different belief systems.

The first time someone used the “create the problem and sell the solution” tactic must’ve been pretty insane.

The relationship between intelligence agencies and entertainment industries is even more crazy.

How they gatekeep “intelligence” and then share it once its harmless to them reminds me of how I was told that dumbing myself down would appeal to more people who’s identity (ego) is attached to being validated by beings that would in fact, “sell” them out for less than what they’re trying to make.

This doesn’t mean they can say to me that the ends justify the means though. So I’m still trying to figure that part out. I’ll prolly write more on that later.

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